Softness? Roundness? Gliding Over?
Sometimes, in communicating with an animal, it takes a special effort to get the true meaning of the message. This can be especially true when the message addresses your own personal "stuff."
So this morning, when I sat down with Sakhara and asked for a lesson, it turned out that my receptivity was being challenged, along with my ego.
"Did you know you have points sticking out of you? Sharp needles that puncture? You can be callous and sharp and you often are. This is part of being judgmental. When you're in judgment your points pop out - yes - like a porcupine.
"It's possible to live a fulfilling life without these needle-like structures. They are not just defensive - they're aggressive, too. You use them to keep others at a distance - away from you. You keep me away, or try to, when you're afraid or tired or grumpy. You don't know hot o command your space gently, tenderly, by nudging."
"Nudging doesn't work well when others are aggressive. Nudging takes a lot of energy and persistence. Perhaps I lack patience, but I suspect I also lack energy."
As I said this to Sakhara, I also had an image of my I Am Presence, my True Self, who is very gentle and nudges me to keep me on my spiritual path and to direct me away from choices not in alignment with path. So I was fully aware of the contradiction. My "ego" self seems more comfortable with a more aggressive approach while my I Am Presence prefers a more gentle approach.
"Both are true [lacking in patience and also in energy at times], yet it would benefit you to learn a different approach so you'd have more option as you interact with others."
"So you're suggesting that I become softer?"
"Not mushy. Not passive. You think in duality - in extremes. Isn't it better for things/energies/people you don't want to be in your space to glide away because you're impenetrable than to have conflict?"
As Sakhara says this, the image comes to my mind of some of the ships on the Babylon 5(B 5) series where the energies of an attack just flow away because the skins of the ships have the ability to allow this to happen.
"Yes, the ships on B 5 where the energies of attack just glide away, like a kind of shielding. But that shield needs to be flexible and self-repairing. If it were rigid it would be brittle, breakable, and less strong."
How interesting that Sakhara speaks about flexibility when I'm taking Willow flower essence which is for promoting greater flexibility. Hmmm. No coincidences here.
"If a shield can fluctuate frequencies it can deflect instead of confront."
As I listen to Sakhara's teaching, I'm reminded of how often the word "fight" is used in our society. Sports teams are supposed to "fight, fight, fight." We expect our politicians to tell us that they'll "fight" for us to get legislation passed or to prevent it's passage.
Even when the US is not officially "at war" with some other country, we say we're at war: war on drugs, war on poverty, and so on. To use euphemisms, such as "police action" is just a way of hiding the truth from ourselves.
We live in a society that promote fighting and warfare at every level. Yet somehow we must change things, and the place to begin is in our hearts.
"I'm not telling you not to stand up for yourself. I'm suggesting a gentler way to be.
"Be a Presence.
"Allow what comes towards you to roll past without harming you when it is not an appropriate energy. When you learn how to do this, you will know you have many more options and you will have greater peace inside you.
"That internal peace is the key to transforming the world."
"You are too afraid."
FILLING IN THE BACKGROUND
Some years ago, Sakhara, who was being kept indoors all the time, told me that "I can't be healthy if I'm kept inside. I need to be outside a bit. I'll just stay around the house and yard, but I can't do my job unless I go out." Her job, as she defined it, was to keep the yard a safe place. She had assigned herself this task, despite Hattie, the feral cat, living in and patrolling the back yard.
That was when I began letting Sakhara go out for short periods of time. She never went off the property. She would circumnavigate the house, eat some grass and vomit (a feline form of digestive cleansing), and come back in after a short while or just sit on the back stoop.
We humans have come to believe that the outside world is dangerous for cats. I'm sure you and I could provide Sakhara and each other with a very long list of the dangers, so I won't bother listing them here. Sakhara had lived outside as a young cat before coming to me. I've seen her face down a dog who ran into the back yard while she was there, and the dog turned and ran away quickly.
The first time I let Sakhara outside, Hattie took her on a tour of the wooded area behind my house, which really isn't very large. There's an enormous tobacco field behind where lots of wild animals roam. Hattie and Sakhara stayed within view of me and the house. It was fascinating to watch as Hattie was clearly showing Sakhara around.
So Sakhara has continued to spend very brief, supervised times in the yard staying near the house or lying in the grass near the house.
Which brings us to yesterday, and Sakhara's lesson.
Sakhara took a tour around the house and then suddenly began to run into the wooded area where there are mostly dead leaves right now, branches and trunks of fallen trees, and hardly any green growth. Where, I wondered, was Sakhara going?
As Sakhara continued to move further and further away from the yard into the woods, I called her and asked her to come back. She didn't even look my way. "Spring fever?" I wondered.
Sakhara is probably 18 years old and very unfit. You can be worldly wise, but if you're unfit with clipped claws, you won't be able to run very far or very fast or climb a tree easily, either. I reminded Sakhara of this telepathically, but she ignored me.
Finally, I could hardly even see her. Her lovely coat blends in with the color of last year's leaves. Like a big cat disappearing into the grasses of the African savannas, Sakhara become nearly invisible to my eyes.
Since the time I had available to sit in the yard was over, there was nothing to do except go inside, be patient, and trust that she'd be in soon, as I had requested.
Of course, my human fear had arisen, and I was already muttering under my breath about how I'd have to keep Sakhara in now that she suddenly had developed a desire to wander around.
In no more than 10 minutes Sakhara appeared at the back door. I let her in and she proceeded to walk through the house, ignoring me completely. Later last night, she offered this lesson.
You are too afraid -- too fearful -- fear filled. You can't explore and grow in that state/space. You hold yourself back and all of us cats back with your fear.
You are not on Earth to curl up into a fetal position and hide. You are here to explore. Uncurl yourself, open your eyes, and look around. The world is an exciting place/space to explore. It is calling out to you all the time -- enticing -- exhilarating.
Yes, there is "danger" -- but it wouldn't be exciting without a bit of possibility - choices.
This requires trusting yourself -- trusting us, too. Trusting Source, too.
Use your feeling sense to decide what and when and whom to trust. Instead of holding back, FEEL your way through to the Truth of Trusting that all is in perfection -- perfect order and design.
Sniff it out. Human noses really need an upgrade. Your noses are too weak and your eyes and ears are also paltry. But your ability to feel is just awakening. Use it -- instead of going to panic and worry immediately. OPEN to FEELING. Create a new habit of greater awareness.
I was safe in the woods today. I wasn't going far. I was excited and delighted by the smells. Sure, I'm not a fit, young cat in body, but you didn't allow for the wisdom and skill of my years. Instead, you just got angry/fearful and that wasn't helpful or productive.
You can't boss me around. I'm a free being, as you are. Get a grip! on yourself.
With that, Sakhara walked away.
Master Teacher Sakhara on Purring
When I awakened at 3:30 this morning, I wasn't sure whether to get up or go back to sleep.
Sakhara soon arrived on the bed and threw her body down with her back against my head and chest.
With my heavy human head partially supported by a pillow and partially resting on Sakhara's chest, and with my right arm around her body gently touching her feet, I received a purring lesson, although I didn't realize it at the time.
Sakhara's purrs are usually very gentle and quiet and difficult to hear, but this morning, with my left ear against her body, they sounded very strong and loud and gentle. It was delightful to lie there and listen to them. Is this how kittens feel?
Sakhara told me to breath normally while allowing my breath to go through my feet and out. Her purrs began to vibrate through me. Did I actually fall asleep for awhile? I don't know for sure. But when I did notice the time again, I was very relaxed and felt rested.
Later on, I resumed my lesson in a more human way - asking questions and taking notes.
So I asked, " What was the lesson about?" (Only a human would have to ask, right?)
"Purring as a form of grounding.
To be grounded through purring, you must
- Be in your own body fully.
- Resonate with the purr of the Earth
- Breathe in and out through your feet, allowing the purr to vibrate throughout your body.
- Feel the purr resonate with the Earth's vibration."
What if someones doesn't have a cat? How can they learn about purring?
"You don't have to have a cat to do this, but you do have to know what a purr sounds and feels like. Then you ...
- Become a cat. Imagine yourself curled up and purring. Imagine you can hear and feel the purr.
- The purr vibrates throughout a feline's body -- all your bodies -- in one steady pulsing. Let your purr spread throughout your bodies.
- Your body settles gently into the earth.
- Hear the purr.
- Feel the purr.
- Be the purr."
So I sat quietly in my chair and imagined I was a cat purring. It didn't take long for me to feel very relaxed and quiet -- seemed like only a few seconds, really. Great teacher!! Thank you.